I had the immense honor of being invited to illustrate the conbook cover for Eurofurrence 2018. This image proved to be a deeply personal journey for me and my personal gift to not only EF but to the furry fandom for all the support, encouragement and love you all have given me over the years. The fandom has changed a great deal since I first dipped my feet in in 2005 but one thing, at least for me, has never changed. The furry fandom continues to support and encourage artists in a way few outlets for the creative can or do. I continue to be humbled by the amount of enthusiasm you all share with me whenever I share something I have created from the deepest wells of my heart. It is a precious gift and I strive to not take you all for granted. (Basically my way of saying I won’t tolerate people dissing the fandom anymore)
The last year has been one of deep personal growth and exploration; both on an emotional level and as a creative. Eurofurrence gave me free reign over the final illustration, leaving me the chance to explore myself through my art. I am sure all artists eventually face a similar dilemma, in which they feel they have lost touch with the passion of creating. I have faced this over the course of the last decade; trying to juggle adult life and relationships, personal artwork with a professional career. I began to rely on my mechanical skill; muscle memory and technical knowledge and at some point began to lose touch with that ineffable inner voice.
For me the place where I was most free to be and to create was in my childhood. There was no urgency to the next thing; all there was and all that was important was the now. Yesterday was best left to it’s own devices and tomorrow was too far away to be bothered about. All there was was the invitation of a blank spread of paper and a tool that would guide my hand towards the call of inward adventure.
In essence, that is what this piece was to me. Featured in the piece are our(My husband Bagheera’s and mine) personal oc’s Kaylee and Samwise (my take on Samwise Gamgee from Lord of the Rings). I had no expectations for this piece and let it unfold like a personal fairytale.
Thank you all for continuing to share the journey with me and to be, each, a voice of encouragement that reminds me to dream away from myself.
“The road was straight, long and uneventful and with the morning energy waning from our group, each person fell to their own private thoughts.
I wondered if the stars would be as magnificent over the Kalahari, whether I might glimpse a brown hyena, and that I couldn’t wait to peel my socks off and have them laundered.
It was appropriate then that when we least expected it, when our exuberance for this magical place was somewhat dulled by exhaustion, that it should remind us that wonder stalks around the corner.
Lelobu, our new vehicle, slowed with a lurch and B-man whispered, “Leopard”.
And there he was, trotting on the roadside ahead, not 40 feet away. My heart clenched in disbelief as he swerved and dove into the swaddle of ochre painted brush. Our vehicle pulled up beside him and I became acutely aware of the awkward prattling din of our vehicle’s engine.
A fierce effulgent gaze that rivaled the brilliance of the sun commanded us to the fall of awe.
And then he was gone.” –Excerpt from “Dry Season Only”
Dedicated to my husband, Lorien, and to Hawa, The Leopard Sun.
There are so many more words I could use in this description to talk about this piece, what it means to me and how it came to be but I feel I’d just be regurgitating passages of the book.
If you are interested, there are still some limited number of books available through the artists that I was blessed enough to share this journey with. This is an extremely limited run and unlikely that it will be published again due to prohibitive costs. But if you would like to have one of your own and share in our story and support it’s creators, you may purchase a copy from myself or one of the other incredible artists that went.
You can buy one of my copies from: My Store
Or Laura Garabedian’s shop at:
https://www.etsy.com/shop/LauraGarabedian
Or Foxfeather’s shop at:
A tangle of inspirations, and I as lost among them as in a sea of stars. The first was heavily inspired by the incredible work of Paul Jouve. Please do yourself a favor and explore the staggering multifaceted visions of this man. The latter are a series inspired by my time in the Makgadikgadi Salt pans and Savuti. Life and death formed an intimate bond, each end and new beginning interminable.
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And again, if you missed out on the book and want to have all these sketches and a bajillion other wonderful pieces of art AND photos AND stories from myself and the 10 other awesome people that went, we do still have books for sale! It’s a very small run and it’s doubtful they will ever be printed again so grab one while we still have them. Here’s a list of all the people that went and are selling them online, grab from me or one of the others listed. No matter who you get it from, you directly support someone awesome with your purchase!
You can buy one of my copies from:http://spiramirabilis.storenvy.com/collections/1255428-books
Or Laura Garabedian’s shop at:
https://www.etsy.com/shop/LauraGarabedian
Or Foxfeather’s shop at:
And thanks, as always, for looking guys! YOU are what makes art possible!
A piece inspired by my dear friend Maqeunda’s character as well as our friendship over the past few years. This piece was started a few years ago now while I was visiting Taiwan but just never seemed to be finished. On tidying my computer I came across it again and decided to see if perspectives had changed enough to bring it to completion. Turns out they had. Sometimes it pays to step away from a piece when you feel you are grinding it, though most of the time I advise myself to work the piece while the idea’s roots have first taken hold. A great many pieces I start and lose steam for along the way don’t get finished, but I often keep them and return to them in an idle moment. With the turning of the old year into the new I have a tradition of tidying house and computer before I turn to the new page. This is also a time of reflection and I found myself feeling extraordinarily grateful for the influence and color this vivacious person has brought into my life. Thank you Maquenda.
.: Defiant :.
One more in the leaf lion series. I decided to ascribe an emotion to each lion image to sort of unify them as a series but give each one a unique emotional message. The first, lion in profile, represents hope, the second (front view) represents fear/doubt and the third, this one, represents defiance. I chose to portray the lion in front of a solar eclipse. I identify lions closely with the sun and here the sun is depicted as eclipsed while the lion still stands defiant before it. I am excited to announce that this sketch will eventually receive a watercolor treatment by the incredibly talented Laura Garabedian ! I can’t wait to see what she does with this!
.: Nebulous :.
Another Kickstarter pledge sketch, this one for the inspiring Kimi. Kimi has supported my work a number of times and this time I was very pleased to have a chance to speak with her a little more. I’d like to believe most artists appreciate the people who support their work and realize without those people, who share and celebrate our visions of the world, we would have little cause to continue creating. Art is a process of sharing our intangible selves, a reflection of who we are at our deepest core and without others to see this, the act of creation, in my humble opinion would be a void expression. Thank you Kimi for reminding me why I create and for supporting that aspect of me that I can only ever quantify in art.
Attaar- Poem of the Butterflies
: سه پروانه - شعر از عطار … با صدای سالار عقیلی
جملگی در حکم سه پروانه ایم “
در جهان عاشقان افسانه ایم
اولی* خود را به شمع نزدیک کرد
گفت هان من یافتم معنای عشق
دومی* نزدیک شعله بال زد
گفت هان من سوختم در سوز عشق
سومی* خود داخل آتش فکند
” آری آری این بود معنای عشق
/ عطار نیشابوری
“All of us are in reality like three butterflies
We’re the fable , in the lover’s oasis
The first came near the candle
and said : ’ I’ve discovered the meaning of love ’
The second fluttered its wing near the flame
and said : ’ I’ve been burned by the fire of love ’
The third threw himself into the fire
Yes … Yes … This is the meaning of love …” / Attar
Expanding Horizons Kickstarter: Still Expanding!
HOLY WOW! You guys are amazing. We have now blown by our third stretch goal, with two weeks still left to go. All my custom sketch commission slots have already gone. WOWEE you guys, I have been misty eyed about
this more than a few times now!
A little later into the game, I decided to add something I don’t usually
offer, a custom full color digital portrait commission. With my day job
I don’t think I have had the chance to offer one of these for at least 3
or 4 years now (and I have much lamented this fact!). This trip means a
whole lot to me and so does this Kickstarter so it would be incredible
to funnel all that positive energy into a whole new work of art!
Details for the commission:
∞ 16x20 at 300ppi (maybe bigger! I get carried away sometimes, oops!)
∞ Animal of your choice or Artist’s choice
∞ 16x20 OR BIGGER Jumbo print of your commission
∞ High Resolution Digital File Proof for you to use to make addition prints for personal use (such as canvas prints)
∞I will include any concept/thumbnail/polished sketches done on paper with the final mailing
∞ A postcard for my project Savuti
∞ And boy golly anything else I can cram into my package to show my gratitude with.
If nothing else please check out all the other incredible offerings from
the insanely talented and eclectic bunch going on this trip. You won’t
be sorry!!!
To all of you that have pledged, spread the word, or both, THANK YOU!!!
We continue to be awed by the outpouring of support and encouragement
for this project!
https://www.kickstarter.com/…/expanding-horizons-artists-jo…
So sometime around October I found myself stumbling into the opportunity of a lifetime. Those of you that know me well already know that I have dreamed of seeing Africa’s wild places since I was about 12 years old. Since then this personal preoccupation has matured and been channeled into specific directions.
The more I explored Africa through stories, documentaries, books, art and the animals that inhabit this variegated environ, I found my attention hyper-focused on a very specific place in the vastness of the African continent: Botswana. One of my earliest works of fiction(its a pretty awful but emotionally honest work of fiction from the mind of a teenager) told of visiting the parched grasslands of Botswana’s Kalahari Desert and later, discovering the incredibly moving documentaries of Dereck and Beverly Joubert, I stumbled upon a calling of sorts. These documentaries coalesced the many ideas, philosophies, accrued knowledge, and deeply rooted sentiments I held towards animals into a single unified climactic vision, a story. Savuti.
I have worked on this story over the course of several years now and in truth it was a story I had searched to tell for many more years before that. But there was something missing, something persistent and nagging that I knew only one thing could address. I needed to know the place in which the protagonist, a lioness named Savuti, was born and came of age. This was the place that shaped her, that made her who she would become and set her upon the journey she would embark upon. More than that I felt I needed to see and experience the world in which she lived so I may give the story the integrity of reality for the viewer to feel the story as poignantly as I intend it to be told. Savuti is meant to be a visual philosophy, a narrative with the viewer that explores the landscapes of morality, free will, and the meaning of humanity as we now define it.
It is my most earnest hope to make this visual treatise a visceral experience, one that moves the mind as well as the heart. This is a story that I feel may be one of the most important I will tell in my lifetime and so it is incredibly important for the foundation to be sound.
I genuinely did not believe I would be visiting Africa so soon and though it is an incredible financial drain on me as a freelance illustrator, it was also made possible and more affordable through the efforts of some incredible friends ( Foxfeather Zenkova and Roman Ženka whom spent years arranging this Safari at a fraction of the cost it would take to make the sojourn alone!). I will always remember how I felt when Foxfeather graciously and unexpectedly extended me an invitation. I sat in a stupor of roiling anxious euphoria before I tried to pretend I would just think about it and weigh real life considerations before giving an answer. From the second she asked I knew I wanted, needed, longed to go and whatever I needed to do, would be done, so I could go. Not only this but the group of people going are some of the most inspiring creative people I know and I had not even begun to dream that when I went it would be spent in the company of so many esteemed fellow creatives!
While discussing the cost of the trip, some of the folks going hatched an idea to do a Kickstarter to help, even slightly, offset the cost of going. While I have not a single regret about this decision to go, it is an incredible financial burden on me and I will be returning with at least 2k of debt to pay back to my incredible mom ( Ivory Mastiffs who made it possible for me to afford the deposit and airline tickets). But beyond financial considerations, the creative folks being who they are, wanted to make something unique and creative that could serve as a keepsake for this phenomenal adventure. So the idea for a travel journal was hatched and after much hard work and hair pulling, the kickstarter was born and launched.
We feel humbled to have blown not only past our initial 3500$ target but also our very first stretch goal of 5000$. WOW!! Thank you to all that have already sponsored this endeavor! Though we are already funded, every extra bit will help those going buffer the financial burden just a wee bit more…and also make the keepsake even more profound. Every little and large bit helps!!!
So if you want to be part of our journey and my own personal journey of finding the heartbeat of Savuti, please feel free to join us by sponsoring this Kickstarter. I’m certain with the crew that is going this book will be jam packed with more than a few zany antics, close —too close?– encounters with alligators and other friendly Botswana fauna as well as heaps of gorgeous artwork and stories fueled to atomic proportions of inspiration by this once-in-a-lifetime trek into the hinterlands of Botswana.
Join us here: https://www.kickstarter.com/…/expanding-horizons-artists-jo…
Also to those that made it this far….an extra thank you for reading. I appreciate each and every one of you!
Managed to get sick (escaped con-crud but got cornered by something else somewhere along the line). So while my brain is the consistency of jelly, figured I would just scan some of the many random doodles that have populated my sketchbook over the past month or so. Lots of shibas and corgis in honor of a visiting friend who has both. Plus some Porco Rosso inspired noodles and lots more other noodles, also, for friends C:.






